Monthly Archives: October 2013

RANT OF CHANGE

I choose to be proactive I choose to try and make a difference. I may be just one single girl. I swear I will do my damnedest to try and see a change! I have read and heard so many … Continue reading

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24

24 months just 24 months of probation misdemeanor and some other random charges 24 months i heard to day he took the plea he took the deal just 24 months thats all he gets for beating me for grueling hours … Continue reading

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irrationally you

“it’s your fault I just love you so much. You made me lose my temper. I can’t stand the thought of losing you and i lost it. You just made me see red. You don’t realize how much I love … Continue reading

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I know I said NO

Fear It’s paralyzed me for two months now been in agony because of him i told what happened yet i didn’t tell it all I was scared i was frozen I couldn’t admit to it then I thought maybe it … Continue reading

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“What are you g…

“What are you going to do? Are you going to live in the dark, locked in here? Afraid to look out, answer the door, leave? Yes, he’s out there, and he’s clearly not going to leave you alone until one … Continue reading

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harder and harder

when your at a cross road When you’re not sure which path to take but you wrestle with the devil with yourself you know whats right you know the wrong but fear it consumes you you’re still paralyzed by fear … Continue reading

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Erase you

Erase- there’s points in our life we wish we had the power to erase this Is one. FLASHBACK- Late at the end of Summer one night. Beginning of the night. thinking man I love him he loves me. Nothing would … Continue reading

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Speaking up

The grueling clock of a gun rings in my ears.  the taste of blood as i swallowed. crying begging for my life. being slammed like i was his personal rag doll for grueling hours. Trying to escape but every attempt … Continue reading

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no remedy

Theres a million scars because of you Theres no book to read no sad song to listen to Nothing to help Nothing will take this edge off Nothing will stop this pain I have finally realized what you are I … Continue reading

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twisted

They will ruin you Their irrational crazy thoughts rub off on you even the most sane person becomes irrational  I tried but i couldn’t pull away  I didn’t know he was a monster no one ever realize the one they … Continue reading

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