Monthly Archives: October 2013
the damage of love left behind
it’s like venom in my brain coursing threw my blood poisoning me all those bitter sweet lies he told me he’s and abuser you say he’s toxic you say he’s deadly i know this he’s mental i know i get … Continue reading
Psalms 10
Psalm 10:1-18 NIV [1] Why, Lord, do you stand far off? Why do you hide yourself in times of trouble? [2] In his arrogance the wicked man hunts down the weak, who are caught in the schemes he devises. [3] … Continue reading
Smiling again! Domestic violence aftermath struggle
I focus allot about the hurt and heartache and abuse that has happened. God knows there has been enough. Enough I pray to last my whole lifetime. This blog is my journey of feelings of how it feels. These past … Continue reading
All his lies enough to fill the grand canyon I’m sure that still don’t stop the hurt. I look back now and realize just how toxic he was. But i loved him so much. I thought we were meant to … Continue reading
pull the trigger
you swore you love me yet were did you go be faithful but tell me were you ever all you did was lie you promised me love till forever guess forever expired planed dreams and a futre made me build … Continue reading
vicious scars you left behind
so you go out to drown his memory away with and attitude thats all so different from how you use to be your confidence that once was this blonde is something worth your time is now just something of bullshit … Continue reading
“Don’t tell me you still care for him?” Domestic Violence life after struggle
Sitting here blaring a single song over and over Sail by Awolnation. Headphones on music as loud as it will go. Something about this song as it repeats several times. I just vibe to it. I think how it just … Continue reading
something?
blame it on me when the trees turn and i just am reminded of the thousands of memories its like the happy memories ones i forgot existed well they come crashing in I think of us i think of how … Continue reading
smile
i look at pictures of us i see happiness see a girl in love i see bliss i look at pictures of me now its a mere shell of who i once was smiling seems so odd i hate to … Continue reading
maybe
I’m getting by slowly but surely i’m still alive so that means i’m getting by. Days? Well some days? yeah well some day’s I have full determination to thrive Others there like today where I can feel the breaking in … Continue reading
mytoxiclove the aftermath of a narcissistic deadly love 